When God leaves a coffee cup.

Had a date with one of my girlfriends just to have a catch up one day.

After she helped me with a few errands, we finally decided to finally have a proper talk at a coffee shop. As always, sharing tasks can be very helpful as it can save time and effort for both parties so we decided that she will order our coffee and I… will have the task to look for our seats.

You see, coffee shops in London on a weekday at 5pm aren’t really as vacant as you could imagine. It’s right after office hours and you could see the whole place packed with busy people spreading their paperwork and laptops all around the tables.

As agreed, I had to look for the preferred seats that we wanted in which my friend specifically asked for ones near a plug so she could charge her phone. I, on the other hand, was looking for seats with cushioned sofas rather than wooden chairs so that it’d be comfier.

As I’ve searched through and fro, I had to break it to her that there were no vacant tables left available at the coffee shop. At all. If we were ever so desperate to get seats, we’d have to share larger tables with strangers. Usually, we wouldn’t mind, but at that particular time, we just wanted to have our own table without disturbing anyone. We went to get coffee to battle the cold autumn weather and I travelled all the way from the other side of London just to see her so I knew I had to find good seats.

I took a quick zoom once again around the place. I don’t know if my spirit was secretly interceding but at that time, I suddenly saw a coffee table that caught my attention. I looked around and saw that there was a dirty & used coffee cup left on a table with vacant seats, I asked those who were nearby and they said no one was sitting there.

I quickly left my coat there as a universal sign that it is reserved and put away the old coffee cup by the counter. As I was about to go back, I thanked the Lord for the seats and instantly it hit me… “What if the Lord left that coffee cup as a discreet reserved sign for us? I can’t remember the countless of times I’ve seen people (and myself) have avoided a seat on the train because there was a bunch of newspapers left on it. I’ve looked around the shop and I wondered what if He put this coffee cup on this table so that no one else will be tempted to get this one?”

The table was best suited for me and my friend. It had the cushiony sofa that I wanted and had the plug socket right underneath my friend’s seat. I looked around and saw that it was actually the only public plug socket available within the area we were seated in. What a favour!

Then the revelations poured in. I know He loves everyone and He’s sovereign enough to be fair. For those who didn’t get that seat that we had, He had His own plan for them and I believe it would be best suited for them. Through it all, I can’t help but think: “How many coffee cups have the Lord left for you and me as His way of reserving the best for us?”

He has the perfect table, a perfect plan that is best suited for us. Some people may find it unappealing at the time because they could think… “Ew, it’s dirty”…  or “I can’t be bothered to clean it”… the list could go on and on. In terms of real life, it could be careers or institutions that we think are unappealing. But God just wants us to make the effort and clear one simple coffee cup and see that He reserved it for us because it was actually the best place for us. It reminded me of the institution that I was in. It wasn’t really the most renown university in London, and I wasn’t really fond of it too… but as I progressed and believed that God had a portion for me in that place, He unfolded His gracious plan. Somehow I was able to exert the love of Jesus to my classmates and also found out that this university offered a degree that best suited my preference (which by the way, was not offered in other universities, Hallelujah!). So things actually worked out not only for my own benefit, but for others too. Most especially, for the Kingdom’s cause too.

My mind’s blown after this revelation. Looking on the other side, imagine how many coffee cups have thrown us off because certain tables were reserved for someone else? This could come in different forms in our lives. Perhaps a job interview we didn’t pass? A prestigious university that we so-desperately wanted to get in but didn’t? A cute guy/girl that didn’t return our feelings? The list could go on and on. This simple revelation reminded me that Jesus doesn’t only love me, but He loves others too. God is sovereign and He knows what He is doing. He does reserve tables for other people, and I must believe that He too reserved my own special table tailored for me.

If the coffee table represented God’s will in our lives, let’s just stop and think… where would God want me to sit?

Jesus loves you.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,

And lean not on your own understanding;

In all your ways acknowledge Him,

And He shall direct your paths.

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When God Introduced Me To Will <3.

Busy busy bee.

Buzz buzz buzz. Buzz here, buzz there, buzz everywhere. So much buzzing that I completely allowed my devotional life to go down the hill!

“I’ll do it tomorrow Lord!”

“Lord next time! When I’m more free!”

“God, my schedule is so busy!”

I could go on and on about petty excuses I’ve made to avoid the heavy devotional time I needed to have with the Lord that was long overdue. There was so many of them!

I think one of the silliest excuses I’ve made was when I said, “Not tonight Lord, it’s late! Its too dark to write in my journal!”

Just revisiting that situation again makes me flinch.

Say what again? The room was too… “dark”… Really? Was there really no such thing as “a light switch”? Also… was it not because of procrastination that’s why this situation came up in the first place? Hmmm… either way, it was just another silly excuse I’ve said for leaving my devotional time with God to the last minute.

Praise the Lord. Through all my quirks and flaws, God is still so patient. He kept nudging me and pursuing me in all my failures even though I was too oblivious to budge.

It got to the point where I actually finally promised, “Okay Lord! I have a 6-7 hour flight to Toronto… We’ll have the whole flight to ourselves <3”. Initiating that I’d finally spend quality time with Him then.

I wonder if God actually believed those words. Maybe He did. Because love always hopes right? He always hopes that we make the right decisions… To choose Him. He always hopes, always trusts and always perseveres.

Through it all, as I finally got on the plane… I sat down and was prepping myself for the long-awaited “date” I had with Jesus. I was determined to get my soul wrecked. I was ready to bring it on.

Then I fell asleep.

I know, I know. That was terrible. What’s worst was that I actually woke up to eat the free inflight meal and then I went back to sleep again 😥

How rude.

I wonder how God felt or what He thought at that time… Talk about procrastination at its finest.

As I was in my deep sleep and was snoozing my head off… The Lord finally had it and He was about to budge me regarding this issue like never before.

So there I was… enjoying my sleep when I suddenly began dreaming that I was walking inside a building. As I was walking, I saw that my direction was headed towards a far off door that seemed to grab my purpose. As I was approaching closer and closer, I found out that it was a dressing room to someone named “Will Powers.” And when I entered the room, no one was there.

Then poof. I woke up.

I said “heh?” Who’s Mr. Will Powers? I did a swift pondering and thought who that celebrity was. Will… Ferrel? No. Before I proceeded to think of more celebrities with the name ‘Will’… it finally hit me.

Will Powers = Will-power.

The room was empty = I had no will-power.

Boy. The Lord has a sense of humour. He made me realise that I am in dire need for more supply of ‘will-power’ in my life. All the excuses and broken promises I’ve made served as an evidence for this rebuke… What a mess I’ve made.

He was right. In all these things, it was my choices that determined what I was going to do. I chose to postpone, I chose to prioritise other things, I chose to make excuses and I chose to fall asleep. These are the same choices that He cannot control because He has given me the gift of free will. The free will to choose Him, or not to choose Him.

So I finally spoke to Him… and He taught me the power of will to determine my choices in life in which determined the actions that I take. It was so funny because His correction was filled with love and grace… like He truly delights in disciplining me… spoken by a true Father who desires His daughter to be the best that she can be in His Presence.

The power of choice comes in every detail of our lives. Could it just be in devotional routines? Perhaps could it be about our calling? Could it be in terms of making a big move in our lives? Or maybe its just about the simple details of our daily routine? In all these things, are we aware that God is just waiting for our will to choose His will over our lives? We have the power to choose God or not. Good or bad. Life or death. Light or dark. To awaken or to stay asleep.

What will you choose?

Jesus loves you.

Deuteronomy 30:11-16 (NLT

THE CHOICE OF LIFE OR DEATH

11 “This command I am giving you today is not too difficult for you, and it is not beyond your reach. 12 It is not kept in heaven, so distant that you must ask, ‘Who will go up to heaven and bring it down so we can hear it and obey?’ 13 It is not kept beyond the sea, so far away that you must ask, ‘Who will cross the sea to bring it to us so we can hear it and obey?’ 14 No, the message is very close at hand; it is on your lips and in your heart so that you can obey it.

15 “Now listen! Today I am giving you a choice between life and death, between prosperity and disaster. 16 For I command you this day to love the Lord your God and to keep his commands, decrees, and regulations by walking in his ways. If you do this, you will live and multiply, and the Lord your God will bless you and the land you are about to enter and occupy.